I never fit in with you, so why did I even try?!

You didn't hurt my feel goods don't  even worry! I like being told Jill go home so we can watch a movie. No big deal. Of course you hurt my feelings of course I was mad but I don't need you to text me and be like sorry you are mad we just didn't want to make you change your standards to be with us. Wow thanks guys for being so considerate. I helped you clean your house so your mom would not have so much stress. I did it for your mom not you! My mom always taught me to respect people and that is what I try to do. My mom taught me how to serve one another! Because of her I am the person I am today and I am not willing to lower my standards to watch a rated R movie with you. I am sorry I don't do that but next time be straight up honest with me about it. Don't try to hide it. I am not a rated R movie watcher. I am not perfect and I do have some flaws but that is okay.
I love the way you just say Jill we are going to watch a rated R movie will you please leave that was the plan this whole time. Wow, thank you for being so considerate. Thanks for trying to respect me and my standards you have a funny way of showing it. I am not going to change who I am to do something I don't want to do. I don't need you to ask me if I am mad because that just makes it worse for you. I know I never mattered to you! I just thought that we could be friends. I guess I was wrong. I only have a little over a month left and then I am free and you will be out of my life for good.
We will go our separate ways and if we are meant to cross paths we will but I sure hope we never do. Trying to make this friendship work is to hard I am done. I rather be happy then sad inside for the rest of my life. Just because I am not a rated R movie watcher. I wish you would of just been like Jill we don't want to watch a movie with you or we don't want to hang out with you. That would of not hurt my feelings as much because that is honest! I am so dumb for believing I fit in. I was never really good enough for your group I should of known that from the start.
Life is hard and it gives you lemons. I am going to make lemonade out of them. Don't even worry you didn't hurt my feelings. I knew I never meant anything to you! I am sorry you have to live with me and I am sorry I am such a horrible person. But next time please just be straight up honest with me!
Peace out cub scout I am off to my next adventure. Until next time run hard play hard! Keep your standards high don't lower them for anyone or anything! Have fun and follow your dreams! Don't give them up for anyone or anything! Loving Life!

Don't Live Here? Get the HECK Out of my HOUSE!

Why are you in my house when nobody is home? You don't live here so please get the HECK out of my house before I call the police! I do not mind if you are over when your friend is here but when they aren't you need to leave. This is not a hotel or burger king so you cannot have it your way. So get out! I am ready to call the police. I might need a new can of Lysol after you leave because I have to Lysol everywhere to sit and touch. You make a mess in my bathroom please get the H out of here! I hate you! Yes hate. You are not welcome here! I am going to seriously hurt you. You think you own the place I don't see you paying rent so why are you even here? It is a good thing I go running everyday or you would not have a face right about now! I hope you understand how angry you make me. I just see you my blood just boils.
Moral of this post get the  H out of my house! Please and Thank you!

Jesus doesn't like Messes Either!!!!

Jesus doesn't like Messes Either!
I am a on rampage to today. I wrote on note on the white board in my apartment to a girl who doesn't even live at my house to clean up her messes in my bathroom I was really nice. So I wrote exact quote "Laura I don't mind you use our bathroom to get ready but please clean up your mess. Thank you!" Not even rude about it just common sense to clean up after yourself.
You don't need to lecture me about being a better person or a better Mormon. I am not perfect and I will be first to admit it. I am not saying my life is all perfect and no bumps in the road. Honey just because I am different then you doesn't mean to you need to judge me. I know we come from different background and family life than you, but you know what Jesus still loves me for me and he always will no matter how stupid I am or the stupid things I do. He will always love me! He will always love you to. I may not be perfect but at least I know that I have a family who supports and loves me and my heavenly father loves me.
If I send you a text I don't expect the whole world to read it. I gave you an honest answer I didn't think I needed to explain myself but I guess if I do you are not really my friend. I learned that trusting people is a bad idea trust family and that is about it.
Jesus doesn't like messes he likes things to be clean and orderly. A home that is clean is where the spirit is and that is what kind of house I want to live it. I want Jesus to feel welcome at my house and not like he needs to clean for me.
I know a lot of you reading this are probably like Jill you need to learn to relax and one day I will. But right now I am just standing my ground. I am not going to budge I have before but I am done being walked all over.
I may be different than you but I am Jill Dallon and I am very happy with that. I may not be perfect but that is fine with me.
Until next time I am going on another adventure! Peace out cub scout! Run hard have fun and dance to the beat of your own drum. Don't let someone take that away from you!
Peace out!

Fall Break!

Fall Break you came and went to fast! I had so much fun with my family. I had a lunch date with my favorite people with my mom one day and my daddy the other. Then I pulled all my mom's flowers and mowed the lawn then I went to green waste that was fun. Then I kicked a tree stump and bruised my ankle it was sweet. I went home and sat on the washer and washed my feet then I went to set up tables with my mom, Karen, Stud muffin Curt, and Deylene Jeffs for super Saturday. I even made dinner while I was home it was yummy! I love left overs back at school. I even made stuff peppers they were good!
Saturday my dad and I went and made bow and arrows for my mom while she was having fun with her friend Kathleen that is Sir Snortis's wife she is pretty great! We made many bows and arrows I think I could make them in my sleep.
My brother rode in the dam donut race and got third place I was so proud of him! I love that boy!
Fall break I wish you would of landed the same time as my mom and brothers so I could of gone to the cabin.
I have been back to school for only two days and I am ready to murder the one chick. I didn't ask for your opinion so why did you even put your input in.
Loving life until next time I am off to my next adventure! Peace out cub scout! Run hard play hard have fun!

Roommates.

Roommates you can't live with 'em and ya can't live without 'em.This year I have the best roommates ever there are nine of us. YES NINE! We all get along but there is two that we don't get along with. The one always invites herself to go running with me but sorry honey I run alone for a reason. I run to make all the anger and frustration leave that has built up from the day before. I run it out! We have another one that is black and African American which is fine but she is so weird she talks to herself and then she screams sometimes and you would think she was dying or something.
This year I have been very blessed with roommates I have the best roommates but you always have to have a few that put a nut in the mix. They helped me when I was recovery from surgery and they have always been there for me through the arguments about the dishes and taking out the garbage!
You have the one roommate who complains to me all the time and doesn't do anything to help the cause of why she is complains. You have to talk to the problem if you don't you really don't have room to complain. Yes I did learn that the hard way it may of taken me 20 years but I have learned it. I guess you will always have one that is a complainer who won't do anything about it but we shall see.
I love my roommates I really do! I am so lucky to have them and to call them my best friends! Loving life! One more day until I am 21!
I am off to another adventure until next time keep running. Have fun peace out cub scout!

Appendix put a bump in the road! Running is my LIFE!

RUNNING! I have missed you in my life these past two weeks they've been rough but we made it through. I may of had to not run for two weeks but I am back and ready for anything. I even followed the  doctors orders about not running for two weeks hardest thing of my life!
For those of you that don't know I ended up in the ER on August 14th to have my appendix removed. I woke up with a pain in my side and worked all day because my supervisor told me he would appreciate if I didn't leave early I finished out the day went home got ready to usher the temple open house. Started crying my dad called the clinic they said take her to the ER its her appendix me being who I am and stubborn didn't go right off the bat. I finally decided at 8:30 when my dad got home from the temple we were going actually he said we were going so we went then 3 hours later I was in surgery and then in the hospital for the night.
The first thing I said to the doctor was are you Sunshine's friend he said yes I said okay you can take out my appendix (like I really had a choice in this matter.) Second thing I asked was when can I run again and he looked and me and said two weeks you got to wait until you are better I said but running is my life. Two weeks you will thank me later. I may only be able to run a mile this week but next week I can run three miles and next Saturday a 10k.
I have missed running in my life it has been a rough two weeks but I know it was for my benefit if I didn't run for two weeks. I am so glad that I have the ability to run and I can run again. I am so thankful that my appendix decided to come out the last week of summer and not the first week of school, I am so lucky to have the family I do they took care of me and moved me to school and never gave up on me even when I did!
Loving life loving being able to run again. Until next time run easy, laugh hard, never give up, follow your dreams! Off to my next adventure! Peace out cub scout!

What I learned this summer!

This summer I learned what a best friend really is. Not one who says hey best friend we will find time to get ice cream and not mean it. No that is not a best friend. Not one who says hey when you come down let me know and we can hang out never happens. Nope that is not a best friend either. I understand you get busy but stop making me promises that are never going to come true. Don't mess with my feelings anymore, I am done! I am not a door mat! I am awesome you may not see it but my real best friend does!
Real best friend just hugs you when you are in tears they say pull over its okay we are going to get through this not your its we! You can walk up and down main street and laugh. You can say dude I don't feel good and they say okay what can I do for you. You say I don't know you end up in the ER to have your appendix removed. I text you and say surgery you say I am on my way! Then they are at your house after work with your favorite things. Yup that is my best friend!
My best friend screams Jill I missed you and we run and hug. Then we laugh because we squeezed each other to tight.
My best friend never makes me promises they don't plan to keep. I can trust them and know that no matter what everything is safe with them. we laugh together we cry together. Call my best friend in tears she comes over no questions. We can sit in the car and not say one word to each other and then we just start laughing together. Yup that is a best friend!
Not some one who makes promises and breaks them. Nope someone who truly cares. They don't even care what you look like they just say hey I am coming to get you and you go. Yup that is a best friend!
When you move away your best friend is the one who text you when your favorite song comes on, then you sing along to it and life is good.
Finding a best friend is hard to do! But I am sure glad I have my best friends! I love you Branae and Morgan and Kortney! Love my girls!!!
Valuable lesson I learned on main street while weeding! You know you have a best friend when they change there plans to be with you.
Lesson learned until next time I am going on another adventure not to far. But soon! Peace out cub scout!