Hello Blogger Fam!
I know I do not write as much as I should and this post is going to have some anger, loneliness and happiness. I wrote this back in January but was to angry to post it.
I have been told no a lot in my life but never once have I ever been told there is no room in the inn. I don't know why that bothered me so much. It just made me think about Mary and Joseph because they had to go to a stable to give birth to the baby Jesus. I am sure it hurt Mary's feelings but she just went and did what she needed to do. I was told that there was no room in the inn, I don't know why it bothered me so much! I didn't really want to go to Paris. I would have liked to go yes but never really thought anything about it until I was told there isn't room in the inn. Those words weren't used per say but that was implied. I am not upset my family went. I am truly grateful they went and are enjoying their time and I am so thankful for the pictures.
Something that has bothered me about this situation is when people say dumb things. I know it shouldn't matter but it doesn't. I am a grown woman. I don't need you to ask if I am surviving without my mom. I am doing fine thanks. Just a little more lonely than normal. Mind you I live in the middle of no where with no people so yes when my family went to Paris yes it was said because it made it so I was left all alone. Yes, it stinks but it isn't the end of the world. Yes, I have to reach out to my friends instead of my lifelines because my lifelines are out of the country and that is okay. Because I know the sun that shines on me is shining on them. Different times of day but its still the same sun and the same moon.
I got a text a week ago it was a tender mercy. My friend from my old singles ward reached out and said she went to another friends relief society lesson. I have a friend who talks about Jesus all the time and talks about Him like He is her best friend. It's really true. Jesus is her best friend and I know that He is with her all the time. Later I found out that she was talking about me. It brought tears to my eyes because she didn't know how much I needed to hear that. I have recently turned my back on Him not on purpose but it just happened. I miss that girl I used to be and the way I used to feel inside.
Thank you for listening and reading my rant!
I am off to my next adventure! Send Coke! I mean that with all seriousness or grape crush is also accepted. 😉 When life gets to hard drink a coke and go for a run! Don't forget to pray because sometimes that is all you have and he isn't going to turn his back on you!
Until next time, Peace Out Cub Scout! Work hard, play harder, and RUN YOUR HEART OUT! Pray a little louder and run a little farther. Never fortget the end goal! Keep the Faith! Over and out!
