Cancer takes the Strong People

Cancer takes the strongest people. They fight for days, months, and years. They keep sight of the end goal they never stop fighting. They go through treatment and more treatment is it worth it yes and no. It makes them better the pain it causes them isn't worth it. I remember vividly January 17, 2008 it was a Thursday. That was the day my best friend was diagnosed with pnemioa. What they didn't know for about a month it was lung cancer. She went through treatment and was strong. She went into surgery to get part of her right lung removed. They said she would make it. She didn't make it. It was so sad to me to watch her die. It was a struggle. My life has changed I lost my best friend. I now run the American Fork Utah half marathon to find a cure for cancer. I miss her everyday. She taught me many things. The memories I have of her are my favorite.
My old boss's cancer has came back she is going through treatment again. She is a fighter. She keeps going strong even on the hard days she is still positive about it. She has never once said why me. She just says yeah it sucks but I will conquer it again. She is truly an amazing lady and such a great example to me. She helped me find happiness in a job and she knew that when I left I was ready to spread my wings and fly.
Cancer takes the strongest people. The people I love the most. Not a day goes by I don't think of my Grandma I wish she knew how much I love her. I take her flowers. She was amazing. She never stopped fighting.
Cancer doesn't choose favorites! Keep the faith and never lose sight of the end goal!

CNA Life

I work in the health care field people come and go. People die and its hard to watch them suffer and then I see when they finally let go and move on to the other side. Some come into our hearts and never leave watching them suffer jerks at the heart. I am so thankful for the plan of salvation. I wish everyone in the world truly knew about it. It gets me through my hard days. Sometimes I think back to when I was in my teenage years my best friend was my Grandma! I watched her suffer and leave this world 9 years ago. May 22, 2008 was the day my life changed forever I lost my best friend and no one was ever going to fill that void. Working as a CNA has changed my life. I have been adopted by some of the residents they take me in as one of their own. I love this one man so very much he just melts my heart with his smile. He is so funny. He told me I would die before him and I said okay I'll be waiting for you. I told him the other day if he dies before me to say hi to my grandma for me and he said she would be so proud of you. He is quite the character.
I wouldn't change my decision about being a CNA for anything. I love helping people and serving them because that is what my mom taught me to do. I learned that even though people come and go the ones you truly love will always have a place in your heart. I love my job! It has molded me into the person that I need to become. It has helped me learn to love people for who they truly are. I am so thankful for all I have in my life. Even when the going gets tough the tough get going. I have learned to follow my heart and my dreams and not give up. Life is hard but it is worth the fight. I see these people fight so hard to live and I am upset that my yellow pants are ruined that is so little compared to them who worry about seeing the sunshine tomorrow.
CNA life is amazing! I love it and hate it! It is hard but it teaches me to love unconditionally like the savior does.
Death is a normal thing it is hard it doesn't get easier you just have to know that there is life after death and you will see them again. Because families can be together forever!

Is it worth it?!

It doesn't make you a bad person if you don't have a degree. It helps you get a real person job but if your heart isn't into it, it isn't worth it. Lately, people have been asking me if I am doing to change my major because I can't pass a test answer NO! Do I want to teach the rest of my life I think so but I do know that once I get my degree I can follow my heart and move to Rhode Island and work as a teacher and at a bakery.
You can take the bakery from the girl but you can't take the baker or the happiness. It is so hard for me to concentrate when I don't want to go to school. I don't understand what is on the page I am supposed to read. The words don't make sense I can sit and stare at it for hours on end and still get nothing out of it. I study so hard and yet my grades don't show it. I ask teachers for help and they don't want to help. I am asking for help and when I come to you for help I am low and need it. I don't ask unless I physically can't do it anymore. Is this something to keep fighting for. 3 more semesters I keep telling myself, The adventures it is going to take me on is endless. I just have to keep believing in myself because nobody else will.
Keep the Faith! Don't lose sight of the end goal! The end is near! I AM A FIGHTER! NOT A QUITTER!