Heavenly Father helps us with our Struggles.

Today as I come and blog. I am a little discouraged not because life is hard because it is. But because I have never had trouble making friends until now, I moved to American Fork to go to school, hoping to make some friends because I left all my friends behind in Brigham as I have done many times before. This time has been different I am like invisible to these people I don't get noticed in the hall which is fine, just another person in class who the professor doesn't really care about. I have no friends here. As I sit here thinking about that I think about my brother who went on an adventure of a lifetime this summer in Alaska. He had no friends for 4 months and all I could think about was how when I was on my mission he told me to suck it up butter cup. So me being the sister that I am I told him that not once did I think about how he felt how lonely he truly was. As I sit here lonely and overwhelmed I think of my brother who kept going. He never gave up because my mom didn't raise quitters. He work to the end yes it was hard but was it worth it! You better believe it was.
Starting school all alone is no fun when you have no interaction with people, you hide in your room and just cry for it to be over. You wake up another day and start the same fight again. Until one day you are crying and thinking no one can hear you then it hits you. Heavenly Father can see your tears and hear your cries. I got down on my knees and I pleaded with my Heavenly Father not to make my life easier but to help me understand the concepts at school to find a friend and to not be so lonely. Classes were a little easier a girl talked to me today and was nice to me. We may just be acquaintances but at least I had a person talk to me and I wasn't invisible to them. I know that my Heavenly Father answers prayer because I know he answers the prayers to a worried mother in the night, to a helpless soul who is scared and doesn't know what to do he listens. He comforts them. He hears every plead for help and sees every tear. Never give up because he hasn't given up on you so why should we give up on ourselves.
The quote "When Life Gets to Hard to Stand Kneel." Its true because sometimes the only place we can go is to our knees, he is the only one who knows how we truly feel. He bled from every pore for us he die on Calvary for us! He knew that is what he needed to do. He felt everything we feel he knows everything about us. He still loves us even when we feel alone and lonely. He will always pick us up when we fall. He will always be there no matter what. It is like Hymn 193 "I Stand All Amazed" I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me. Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me. I tremble to know that for me he was crucified, that for me a sinner he suffered he bled and died. Oh it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me. Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me!
Keep the faith and keep going! Pray to Heavenly Father. He will be there always. He loves you more than you can comprehend. Nothing is impossible as long as we have him on our side.
Keep the Faith! Over and Out! You will always be LOVED!

What an AMAZING Summer couldn't of asked for anything better!

My Work Family!

What a Summer of adventures! Disneyland, Lava Hot Springs, Wedding reception with Quinn, Yellowstone. Adventures all around. Summer where to begin. It was my first summer home from the mission. I had so many things I wanted to accomplish and I did just that. I went to Disneyland with my family and got to spend time with them. Laughing riding rides and just being a little kid again. No worries in the world.
I worked at the bakery the Old Grist Mill. I love that place so much it has brought me so much happiness in my life. It taught me how to be happy by placing lots of amazing people in my life. Like Jynette, Haylee, Niccole, Missy, TiA, James and Quinn just to name a few.
First I want to start off with Jynette I love this girl so very much she has because one of my best friends she taught me what it was like to have a real friend. She is always there. We went to Lava Hot Springs and it was so much fun we got sunburned but we had a blast running up the stairs to the slides. Tubing down the river. What adventures we have had! I love her she makes me so happy.
Secondly, we have Haylee who is just awesome! She is so funny and loving. We go to Swig and deliver cookies to our friends who could not come with us. She makes me laugh all the time we would scream "Cheese Grill" across the store and only we knew why it was so funny or "Peppa Jack" my first week of work I couldn't remember the cheeses so I was naming them off and instead of Pepper Jack it was Peppa Jack. She is a cute little spunky girl.
Third, we have Niccole and Missy and they are just great! They make me laugh so hard when they are together. They like to sew do projects together. They always are there to help you out if you need it they always answer all of your questions no matter how silly. They have the most selfless attitude ever.
Fourth James and Quinn oh how I love these two boys! They are cousins and they are so silly they make any bad day good just by being in it. They are good sports about being sneak attacked well James not so much but Quinn was so great about it. Quinn and I went to a wedding reception for one of my past roommates and it was really fun. It was in the Gardens in Salt Lake. It was so fun to get to know him and to just be a normal person instead of being at work and just doing work things. We talked about our missions. He helped me understand lots of things that have been lacking in my life. He taught me how to love one another and its okay to be a real person. He is a stud.
Fifth we have TiA she is awesome! She started coming to church with me. She is so funny and she dances to the beat of her own drum, She taught me that it doesn't matter as long as you are happy. Nick name is tattoo girl and she knows it to.
I love my work family they have been there for me when I was so bitter and had no one I had them. They took me in as I was and helped me become who I needed to be. They got me already and built of my self esteem and sent me to school. I will go back on weekends. It is a place that makes me so happy. It makes my heart happy when everything else seems to be falling apart.
I am so thankful for the time I had to spend with my family this summer going to Disneyland and Yellowstone. It was so great to be with them as I have been away for quite awhile. They never gave up on me on my mission or will they now.
I moved to school and I am so thankful for all the family time I had. As now I am alone for a week. I have no one but my Heavenly Father. I know that my Heavenly Father loves and is always there for me. He hears my prayers always. He sends me blessings and puts people in my life when I need them the most. I am truly blessed to have such amazing people in my life and to be where I am today. Even though it is hard I know that I can do it because I have Christ on my side and anything is possible with him. Life is hard but we have a Father in heaven who loves us and would do anything for us. All we have to do is pray and talk to him. As we search the scriptures we will be able to find answers as well. Keep the Faith!
Living the Dream until next time! Over and Out!